Since You've Been Gone

You wouldn’t believe how much has changed since you left.

Some of it turned out okay,

and some of it is still a complete mess.

I’m doing the best I can,

but there are days I look around and think,

“How did everything end up like this?”

I wish I could sit down with you

and just talk through all of it.

You always had this way of calming me down

without even trying.

You’d listen,

you’d tell me what mattered and what didn’t,

and somehow the world felt less confusing after that.

I don’t have that anymore.

I don’t have you.

And I miss it in ways I can’t explain to anyone else.

I miss your voice.

I miss the way you’d roll your eyes when I overthought things.

I miss knowing I could call you

and you’d just… get it.

So yeah, some things are okay.

Some things are still a mess.

But the part that hits me the hardest

is knowing I can’t tell you any of it.

Not the good,

not the bad,

not the in-between.

I miss that.

I miss you.

If these words connected with you, you’ll find many more like them in What Remains. It’s a collection of the writings I’ve shared over the years, bringing together reflections on grief, love, loss, and the connections that continue long after someone is gone.

I hope it brings you comfort, understanding, and the reminder that you’re not alone.

If you’d like to read more, you can find the book here

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