My Hope for You
I hope you don’t miss me up there as much as I miss you down here.
The day you died, I felt like I stopped breathing too.
Like a part of me left with you.
And I’ve spent every day still trying to figure out how to fill that emptiness.
I hope you don’t feel any of that up there.
I hope there’s no pain, no grief.
I hope you didn’t take any of it with you when you left.
I hope you’re not watching us and worrying.
I hope the moment you left, everything that was hard here just fell away.
The things that kept you up.
The things that wore you down.
I hope you got to leave it all behind.
Because I’m still here in it.
Still feeling every bit of what this life asks of me.
And as much as I would give anything to have you back, I hope where you are now is so far beyond anything we could ever have words for down here.
I hope it’s just beautiful.
I hope it’s just easy.
I hope it’s everything this life sometimes couldn’t be.
I hope you’re free.
My book will be available soon.
This is a collection of writings centered around grief, love, loss, and learning how to keep living after life changes forever.